I got over an emotional hurt quickly...

As in, within 36 hours.

Am thankful that the emotional investment wasn't huge.  Even if at first I thought I had gone ga-ga over this person, the time spent together wasn't enough to build a strong foundation.

Which leads me to wonder...  maybe the last chapter wasn't really closed at all?

Hmmm...

my mood isn't as perky as a month ago.

This little, nagging feeling has been gnawing at me since Sunday.  Something happened, totally unexpected, and has made my insides twist and turn uncomfortably at the thought that someone very close to me, and supposedly more mature, can act unbelievably juvenile.

Again, it's just a feeling.  I could be wrong.

But if I'm right, I hope karma hits back-smack-full-on-KAPOWSKI!  (evol, evol gurl, mwahahaha)

Time to invoke happy, positive thoughts to rule my diva-luscious universe!  And maybe its time I get me that rooster and bigger pair of mandarin ducks.  Hmmm...

Photo credits:  http://mandarin-ducks.com

March 8 is International Women's Day

Sadly, there wasn't any significant activity in the office to commemorate this day.  To think the world is celebrating it in a big way.  

Maybe because the company's run by more males than females?   Now, that's a thought.  Hmmm.

Wonder what J&J Philippines did.

Photocredit:  www.internationalwomensday.com

...I became fat-ass lazy.

In more than one ways, I have neglected the little things that are important: Going to the gym, watching how I snack (oh believe me, my pre-PMS state turned me into a gobblemonster of sorts!), updating my blog, watching what I say.

For the latter, I know I shouldn't blame PMS for it.  But after a few days, it was the only reason I could think of for blurting out such inanities to a someone I've been starting to care deeply for.  And the way I've been bothered for the past week is an clear indication that he's become more than a friend to me.  His silence has been agonizing, and his very cordial sms responses yesterday left me feeling... cold.

Today, my eye caught the title of an unread message in my inbox: "Learning to Trust by Victoria Osteen"

It was that story of a little girl who saved up to buy a fancy pearl necklace which she wore everyday. Her father saw this as an opportunity to teach her about trust, and  kept on asking her if she she trusted her and was willing to give her pearls to him.  Of course she kept saying no. Days passed till the little unrelenting heart finally, tearfully gave in and let go.  In exchange, she found herself the recipient of a set of beautiful, genuine pearls. 

Old story, yeah... But the succeeding reflection hit home:

Is there something you are holding on to today that is keeping you from God's best? If you'll trust Him and let go of what's in your hand, an exchange will take place. God will let go of what's in His hand for you—peace, strength, wisdom, favor, and more. He'll give you exactly what you need.

Remember, God is taking you on a journey of faith.  Be open to seeing things from a new perspective.  Don't settle for second best when God has so much more. All you have to do is learn to trust in Him!

Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all of your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6, NIV).

Tears on a Sunday morning.  It's been a long while since I last heard Him lovingly speak to me in silence, touching my noisy, struggling heart.

How can I receive love when I don't let go of the hurt?

How can I believe when I don't even trust Him fully to direct my path?

"Be still, and know that I am God."

It's MARCH??!

It's already the 1st day of March, and that means it's officially SUMMER!  Today is apparently an auspicious day for business, love and moving house, harharhar...  I hope the auspiciousness rubs off on the bad feeling I had at the end of a wonderful weekend.

...I've been eating too much salt today!

I practically wiped out a whole container of super spicy tamarind with rock salt.

Not to mention I've been eating and eating.

Thank God I bought a 1.5L bottle so I'm chugging water to flush the baddies away.  *gulp-gulp-gulp*

Photo credits:  www.michaelcutter.com